Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Christmas movies

Another one or Brodie's favorite Christmas movies.

Mickeys Christmas.

Today, I skipped work and stayed home and cuddled with my sick boy all day. Sick days are no fun but I enjoy being there for him. The dr. said it was just a cold virus but we will be going back if there's no changes tomorrow.

Love my little toot toot so much!! Praying he is better for Santa!

Wednesday, December 11, 2013


Goodnight from me and my toot toot! One more day of work and we get to have our days together. 

Monday, December 9, 2013


What a long day!! I worked one job for 9-5 and then my other one after. When I got home, Cheyanne was home from the mountains and Brodie was happy as could be. I finished my day with 2 quizzes and 2 discussions. Today was a rough day...I'm ready for tomorrow. 

Sunday, December 8, 2013


Meet Charles.
Gamma bought him at Bass Pro Shop and Brodie named him all by himself. :)

We've already broken the rules:

But Brodie is 2...he doesn't understand the whole concept of the elf just yet.

Tonight we are watching the movie. We finally had a night to relax and watch it.

I love traditions and I look forward to many years with Charles.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013


2 jobs. 
Online degree.

This is the earliest I've went to bed in weeks (12:07am) and 7am comes bright and early.

Today, I left Brodie at daycare for the first time ever. Aunt Karen has an in home daycare and he is going there. It was so hard. He left this am with Mrs. Tina and she dropped him off...Thank God...I couldn't have done it. 

When he got home, he ran to me and squeezed me tight.

He said: " I said where mama go and I cried"....then he did a fake cry. Then he looked at me and said "mama right there" and pointed at me. 

Yep, I cried.

I'm still so sad. Luckily, it's just Monday-Wednesday. 

I feel lost without my sidekick.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013


I'm so TIRED...but can't sleep. It makes no sense but its what is happening. My new job has put me on overload. I thought it was going to be part-time but it's definitely full time! I'm not complaining, though. I love it. I'm just trying to get adjusted and on a good system. And did I mention that I have a work buddy?

School is slowly becoming harder and  and I need more time in my day to complete my course work!! Ahhhh. It's 1:43am.

This is my view:

Goodness, I love those two more than I can express. 

I think I'm going to cuddle up with my boys and go to bed! We have a busy day tomorrow.

Here a few random pics from the week:

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

For Real.

You all know, whoever "you all" are that read my life, that my little boy is my joy....BUT I fail to rant/blog about my main man. I sometimes tell you all about my good times and fail to let you see the realness of our lives. The realness is that life has been hell for us. Many people have questioned what has happened so here is just a piece.....of my heart.

Phillip, my husband is a huge sunshine in my life. This January will be 11 years since he stole my heart. We've been through it ALL in the 3 years we've been married. We've experienced being on top of the world to feeling like everything was being stripped away from us. And everything has been stripped from us except our family.  We've experienced loss that I pray we will never have to face again. We've faced situations and struggles that I wouldn't wish upon anyone. We've had sleepless nights due to stress and emotions. Failure. Failure hit us hard and when it hit publicly. We let people down. We hurt people. We did people wrong. We were done wrong. We are sorry....truly sorry if you are one of those people. We were hurt by people. We experienced shame, embarrassment, and a lot of bitterness in the past year that I can't even describe. When I say our world was turned upside down, I literally mean it. We've been beaten up verbally countless times and our names have been shoved in the dirt. None was ever intentional....all unintentional... We bit off way more than we could chew in our business and it came back to haunt us. We were unaware of things and learned the hard year. In one year we've lost our home, our cars, most of our possessions, our ministry.  We were "politely" forced out of something we loved by people that we thought would never push us away....that hurt....really bad.  We had a safe place (our ministry) and that was stripped. All the time, love, money......sticking with it through the ups and downs and always supporting them....all of a sudden meant nothing.  We were the ones who HELPED...we helped and gave and gave all the time. We would do anything for anyone and all of a sudden we were the ones who needed help.  Pride. Oh my goodness, my poor pride. I mean, I was someone who had it ALL together. Good job, nice car, nice house, nice things, perfect marriage. I didn't fail. Ha. Life sure did show me. I wanted to hide (and sometimes still do) in a dark hole or run far away.  BUT, through it all.......we've remained in love. We've been there for each other....never pointing a finger but pushing each other through. I know the heart of the man I married and it's good. He loves people and puts others needs before his.  His heart is what got the best of him in the first place. He works hard and spends his money trying to do what is right. We lost everything because we gave it up try to mend our mistakes. Lord knows what we've gone through. Change should be our middle name.   I type all of this for one reason tell someone that marriage is "for better or for worst." Worst can hit when you least expect it and when you could never imagine it happening.  To tell you that God is there. He is with you. He's been with me. He's been my peace and he's given Phillip strength to be my rock. God has taught me so much in this valley.  I see Him and life more clearly. My pride has been pushed aside.   And I'm not going to lie, it has been hard. We've gained an appreciation of second chances and we've not once turned our back on God. We trust in him and we've given our problems to him. When another challenge would hit, we would say "I trust Him."  I'm just thankful for Phillip tonight. I've watched my best friend walk around with the weight of the world on his shoulders and still be the best husband and daddy.  I'm thankful for a man of God...a true man of God that doesn't put on a front. He remains constant with who he is no matter who he is around.  A man that admits when he's wrong and moves forward. Someone who should be mad at the world, but instead puts a smile on his face to keep me happy. He loves hard. He helps me not to hold grudges and look for the best in people. He doesn't talk about anyone, even when they do him wrong.  I know what I've dealt with on the inside, so I cant imagine what he feels like.  Our struggle is not over. We are still right dab in the middle of financial chaos, but I have hope. I have hope because "greater is He who is in me than he that is in the world." I decided to share part of our story. You never what someone is going through...that's one of the many lessons I've truly learned. & if you feel like your world is falling...hold on...God is with you. He will be your everything and He is all you need. Trust in him. Truly trust in Him. He has you and your storm will pass. I can't wait to see our rainbow.

I love you crazy. Thank you for showing me true love.


I love special times/moments/holidays. They don't have to be complex or fancy. For me, the simple moments are what makes me the happiest. I spent the weekend with my mama and it honestly felt like a much needed vacation. She had Monday off of work so Brodie and I didn't take it for granted. After church we went home and started decorating her house for Christmas. That night we cuddled up in bed and watched Santa Clause 2. There was something so comforting sleeping by my mama. I truly love that woman with all that's in me. She's my rock and always encourages me. She's not afraid to tell me the truth and I know it's always out of love. 

We had a special moment that Ill always remember. Mama and I were trying to plug in her DVD in her room. Brodie was trying so hard to get our attention. We finally looked at him and he's smiling from ear to ear.  He points at a picture of my Grandma Holcombe and said "that's meme right there." He told us she was happy and was in Gamma's room. Funny thing is that I've never shown her to him or even mentioned her. It built my faith even more.

Monday we met Phillip for lunch because he was missing his Brodie B. Afterwards,  we went back to mama'a and played, decorated, and relaxed.

I'm so thankful for days like that. Surrounded by the ones I love and cherishing them. I've learned early that life is short and precious. 

Tuesday, November 5, 2013


I started my new job today!! It was interesting...& a little overwhelming but I think I'm going to love it. I can control my own hours and that's my favorite part. I only did a little bit today so Brodie B. was my little helper. 

I am also in school. I am so excited to finally get started on a degree. 

I'm working hard to "start over" and I couldn't be happier. Things are still rough but I can see the light.