Tuesday, July 24, 2012


My Cheynanan {Cheyanne} told me the other day that she read my blog. She said she loved it & she was so happy that she was in it. She then said that people that don't know us probably think that I'm your daughter. Well, she's probably right.

But, Cheyanne is not my daughter. In fact, we aren't even related. I'm blessed to call her my God-daughter. Her parents have shared her with me since she was 2 years old. {thank you Michael & Rhonda}.

I do though, love her like my own. Me & that 11 year old share a bond that words can't describe. I've always loved her unconditionally but when I became a mother to Brodie, I loved her even more.

She is sweet, caring, funny, loving, giving, beautiful, witty, thoughtful, & anointed. She is a good girl who loves the Lord.  She is very mature for her age & I sometimes find myself have grown up conversations with her.  We have the same love for shopping, bath & body works, the beach, reality tv, drama, ice cream, baking, & just being together.

I can't say enough about her. She looks just like her daddy but acts just like her momma.

Brodie loves her and gets so excited every time she comes over. She has her own room & bathroom in my home & she will until she wants it.

So, thats who Cheyanne is. She is my borrowed child.


Sunday, July 22, 2012

We had a relaxing weekend.  Friday, we ate dinner at The Crabb Shack.  Saturday, Phillip woke up early & went to the church to set up for the IWC Kids Crusade.  The theme this year is Swamp People.  It starts this Monday & ends Wednesday.  I'm excited to see whats in store for the young children who will attend.  Afterwards, we met Amanda, Jareb, Mom & Dad at Carey Hilliards for dinner.

Sunday, we went to church and then ate lunch.  We picked up Chey on the way home. When we got home Phillip cut grass and Cheyanne & Brodie played in the sprinklers.  Brodie is now napping & me & Chey are watching "How to lose a guy in 10 days" while waiting on the season finale of The Bachelorette.  

Brodie learned how to say bye bye this weekend. Here is he saying it:


Saturday, July 21, 2012

Answered Prayer

I couldn't be more happier to read the great news from one of my favorite bloggers:
Lucy's biopsy came back clean. Prayers have been answered! Continue to pray for this little girl. She is a fighter.

Its 1:40 am & I'm going to bed!

Good night!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Family Matters

Sunday, we found out the my Mama's aunts husband {Uncle Shorty} passed away.  He was 87 years old.  He and my aunt had been married for 63 years.  He was always with her & sat quietly & patiently by her side everywhere they went. We always called him her shadow.  I had the privilege of them staying at my house for a night a few weeks back.  He stayed up late & listened to us talk and Brodie loved crawling to him.

Me & Brodie went with my mom to his viewing & funeral in Commerce, Ga.  We stayed the night Monday night and we got home Tuesday night or early Wednesday morning. It was sad seeing family hurting, but I'm so thankful they were at peace knowing he was with Jesus.

Me & Brodie were so excited to get home to daddy.


Today has been a day of silence.  There are so many things I want to say, but God is helping me. Family can be so embarrassing at times-especially when the ones I've looked up to & grew up respecting start acting like children.  I know to respect my elders & I wouldn't dare speak out of way to any of them, but I wish they would grow up & remember they have a generation under them watching them. They have nieces, nephews, great nieces, great nephews, cousins, children, & some grandchildren reading and seeing these posts. I've always been taught to keep my personal business to myself & that's how I live. In my Christian walk, I've been taught that life & death are in the power of our tongue. Why put all of our business for the world to see on facebook? I think there is a more mature way of handling ourselves.

-There are 2 sides to every story & 2 different perspectives<~this is why I never take sides or stick my nose in something when I don't know all  the details. I'm just praying for each of them to start making wise decisions. I love my family & pray God will restore broken hearts.

 On a HAPPY note, Brodie had his 1st Krispy Kreme doughnut tonight & ate at his first Japenese restaurant where they cooked in front of you.  He was amazed at both.

He couldn't figure out the glaze after he was done. Me & Amanda can relate to this experience. :)

I missed last Monday's Bachelorette episode and I can't wait to watch it. I'm even more excited about Sunday.  Team Jef.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

It's the small things...

Today has been a good day. It was one of those days where you notice and appreciate the small things


-How amazing it feels to be apart of my church, IWC. I love going and I love ministering to the children.

-My sister. As I watched her dance on stage this morning , I appreciated her dedication, passion, calling, & anointing for what she does. She is just an amazing woman.

-My mama. She is there...always there. I just appreciate her.

-My husband. He is such a good role model. The children at church adore him. It amazes me every Sunday how he captures the attention of 50+ children all by hisself.

-My god daughter-Cheyanne.
She is thoughtful & kind. She is growing up to be a beautiful young lady & Im grateful her parents allow me to be a big part of her life.

-My house. It feels like home.

-My son. He is my joy.

Friday, July 13, 2012

50 Shades of Grey/Magic Mike

Warning: Geez-Do I seriously need a warning??
This post is my opinion.
I respect opinions-whether they are the same as mine or not.
This post is my belief.
I respect beliefs-whether they are the same as mine or not.
I do not judge. You make your own choices-I honor my convictions & relationship with my Savior.

I just felt compelled to write. This is not to convince or persuade.


Magic Mike & 50 Shades of Grey.
Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me life in your ways.

As much as I love a good story, you will not find me watching or reading the above titles.
Why? Well, for me....it goes against everything I believe. Am I a "stick in the mud?" Yes, probably to the hundreds of women who have seen the movie & read the book, but no to my husband & no to my Jesus.

#1. I LOVE my husband.
When God created my husband, he created me a few short years after just for him.  I know we are walking in the will of God being married.  He's my everything & I love him unconditionally. Not only do I love & like my husband very much-I honor him.  I respect him.  I submit to him.  I have eyes only for him.  When we made a vow before God & witnesses, I took those vows very seriously. & I understand our covenant & I understand Gods instructions.  
Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife even as Christ is the head of the church, his body, and is himself its Savior.  Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit in everything to their husbands.
{Ephesians 5:22-24}

Your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you.
{Genesis 3:16} 

Anyone who knows the God I'm talking about knows that he's a gentleman. You know that he is loving & wants the best for his children.  When God says submit & head and all those words-he doesn't mean that your husband is your boss and he rules over you. He's describing honor & respect & all things good.

#2. Classifications
50 Shades of Grey: Erotic Novel
Magic Mike: Sexual Content, Nudity, Coarse Language, Substance Abuse
Both titles are now being called "Mommy Porn"

When choosing what I listen to, watch, read I follow this:
“The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!” 
{Matthew 6:22-23}

Okay, Christian ladies: Let's be REAL.  Would you accept/tolerate your husband reading/viewing something classified as "Daddy Porn?"

I know I wouldn't.  & I respect my husband enough not to make him doubt that something like that could even come close to satisfying or pleasing me. 

  For all that is in the world— the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride of life—is not from the Father but is from the world.
{1 John 2: 16}

#3. Lust, Sex, Adultery

I'm not going to say much here. I will tell you this: my sexual relationship with my husband is between me & him. I don't talk about it with others.  It is sacred.  I do know that I don't need to read a book or see a movie to desire my husband & I do know that I will not look at another man & have desire in my heart-Why tempt myself?

I will show you what God tells me:

Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous.
{Hebrews 13:4}

“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ 28 But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart.
{Matthew 5:27-28} 
Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Shall I then take the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? Never!  Or do you not know that he who is joined to a prostitute becomes one body with her? For, as it is written, “The two will become one flesh.” But he who is joined to the Lord becomes one spirit with him. Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body.
{1 Corinthians 6:15-18}

Jensen Franklin once described sin as a python snake.  He described the way a snake kills its prey. It slowly starts wrapping itself around it until its tightly around the victim. Sin, unless repented, will continue to grasp onto you tighter & tighter-making it harder and harder to be released.  

Beloved, I urge you as sojourners and exiles to abstain from the passions of the flesh, which wage war against your soul.
{1 Peter 2:11}

But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death.
{James 1:14-15}

So, ladies-Christian ladies-I encourage you.

 Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.
{Ephesians 5:11}

*Have I read the book? NO. Have I seen the movie? NO. I know those both are questions that would be first asked by the person disagreeing with my opinion & belief. I know because of the classifications that they wouldn't be my preference*

Just as God gave us instructions, he gave our husband instruction as well.  I feel that that their instructions is even tougher than ours...
Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her,  that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word,  so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish. In the same way husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself.  For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church,  because we are members of his body.   “Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.” This mystery is profound, and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the church. However, let each one of you love his wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.
{Ephesians 5:25-33}

I have an Ephesians 5:25-33 husband-maybe that's why I am so passionate about this subject.  I also love Jesus & I always want to be a shining example to my son.  

We, me & Phillip, daily have someone commend our marriage or asks us how our marriage is so strong.  We put Jesus in the center & we live by the word of God.  Is our marriage perfect? Of course not, but I can tell you that we make it as close to perfect as we possibly can. 

Monday, July 9, 2012

Happy Birthday, Kim!

Dear Kimberly,

Happy Birthday! Today, you would of been 27. I can't believe that number.  It sounds so old. I'm sure that's what you would say if I could talk to you.

I think of you everyday, but today I thought of you continuously.  It's your 1st birthday in Heaven.  I miss you so much. Last year, you had a last minute birthday party.  You called to invite me and I was in the middle of moving in Metter and couldn't make it.  I wish I would of went. 

It's crazy to think that today you were born.  You were brought into this world to only live a short 26 years. I can't wrap my mind around it, but I'm so thankful I had those wonderful 26 years with you. I was born 3 months later & we were inseparable growing up.  You were my best friend & sometimes I feel completely lost without you.

I spent the afternoon with your Mama, Daddy, Sister{Shelley}, Logan, & Laney. It made me feel so good to be surrounded by you.  I couldn't quit staring at your picture in your Mama's living room. It was the most recent and you looked so beautiful with your short, blonde hair. You always changed it up and you could rock anything.  You were wearing your pink & black dress & I'm sure you had on those hot pink heels. <You know, the ones that made your calves look AMAZING>

Logan told us that William took them to your grave. They sang Happy Birthday, brought you flowers, & sent you a balloon.  Logan was so excited. Sissy was too.  Your Mama bought Laney a pool for her birthday.  Me, Shelley, & Brodie watched them swim & your Mama cooked hamburgers.  After we went inside, Laney curled up with me on the recliner & told me she wanted to cuddle.  She will never know how much she healed me heart. She is so much like you. Logan is too.

I can't say I miss you enough & I can't wait to see you again.

Friday, July 6, 2012

Dear Kim,
My mind is cluttered with thoughts of you today. I can't seem to "snap out of it."  I can't focus on work or anything but the thought of you.  Today is the last day that I can say.."we were doing this last year." because tomorrow is the anniversary of your death.  It seems like yesterday you were rubbing my pregnant stomach with tears rolling down your cheek making me tear up as well.  It seems like yesterday that I was sitting in your lime green kitchen eating chicken alfredo and listening to you tell me about Laney & Logan.  Time is precious-I truly understand that now. I also truly understand Heaven. It is more real to me than ever before & I live daily on the promise that I will see you again. 
I can't help but to think about how excited you were a year ago today. You went to the doctor and you got to see your baby. You sent me this picture. Our dream of being pregnant together was finally coming true. I love you & I will miss you all the same until we see each other at the gates of heaven.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

The 4th of July

We had a relaxing night at Mill Creek park in Statesboro. Phillip & I brought along Cheyanne & Olivia. Mom, Dad, Dustin, Ryan, Jareb, & Amanda went too. We put our stuff down as close to the band as possible and watched people dance. Poor Brodie had fun but he was soo sleepy & he also didn't feel 100%. Fireworks were beautiful. Afterwards, we met my Aunt Nancy & Uncle Trey at Baskin Robbins for ice cream. It was a great night with my favorite people.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

The last few days.

Cheyanne got back from camp summer camp on Friday. She called Saturday & asked if she could stay Sunday. So, after church she was ours until she had to go home! Brodie was so happy to see his Cheynan!

After church we went to eat @ Fudruckers and then the mall. Brodie has hit a major growth spurt so all his clothes were a bit snug. I think I bought every shirt & shorts in Childrens Place. I just love their clothes! I also picked up a few things from Gap-my favorite. We shopped all day & then met my dad at Longhorn for dinner.It was 90 degrees so dinner was hard to enjoy.

Monday, I caught up on some work& cleaning & then went to drama.

I ended up with another sweet girl to come home with us. I think Chey & Olivia have started a Monday Summer Tradition-which is fine by us!

Today, we had a follow up appointment with Brodie's kidney specialist to hear the results. He confirmed that everything was normal.
We ate at Spankys for lunch & then went to Walmart to pick up some things for Tuesday family night. We also came home with this.


Brodie LOVES his 1st 4-Wheeler!!

Tuesday night family night consisted of Homemade Krystal hamburgers, Chey & Olivias 4th of July cupcakes, & a photo shoot of Brodie with Aunt Amanda.

The girls & Phillip are now shooting fireworks...at 11:11 pm. My neighbors are going to think we've lost our minds!

Cupcakes by Chey & Olivia

Gamma letting Brodie cool off in Longhorn. It was 90 degrees!!
A few of the Soul Steppers & a future Soul Stepper!